Reading the next five chapters of this book last night, I marked a few more passages to share:
As the protagonist is looking through books at a therapist’s office he finds The Wounded Heart, a book about childhood sexual abuse. The therapist tells him that the book is for people who were abused and asks, “Were you?”
She had a little-old-lady dace, this one, with a shock of white hair, and I never saw her again. What kind of question was that? Of course I wasn’t abused. If I were, things would be so simple. I’d have a reason to be in shrinks’ offices. I’d have a justification and something I could work on. The world wasn’t going to give me something that tidy.
Next, Craig is at his current shrink’s office:
“I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare, you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.”
“And what is that nightmare, Craig?”
This chapter continues with his therapy appointment:
“I waste at least an hour every day lying in bed. Then I waste time pacing. I waste time thinking. I waste time being quiet and not saying anything because I’m afraid I’ll stutter.”
“I see.” She writes something down on her legal pad. Craig, this will go on your permanent record.
“What are you going to do when you leave, Craig?” (Referring to leaving his appointment)
“She always asks that. What am I always going to do? I’m going to go home and freak out. I’m going to sit with my family and try not to talk about myself and what’s wrong. I’m going to try and eat. Then I’m going to try and sleep. I’m not doing well in terms of being a functional human, you know?
Anyway, just a few more excerpts from my recent reading. Ideas I find particularly relatable. More to come. In the meantime, pick up a copy of this book, It’s Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini. Link on my homepage.